There are a lot feelings in my buffer, waiting to come though. It seems like it could be a while before it clears. Maybe it will be a while before it stops getting worse. That being said, my life is going really well. I love my work. I think it will sustain me in spite of myself. I have a therapist. I have a sponsor. I have several people who give me unconditional positive regard. I'm told this is uncommon. It feels good.
I love you John.