Saturday, June 13, 2009
Takes My Breath Away
Annie in Brooklyn
Annie at the Hudson
Annie on St John US Virgin Islands
A few months ago I put a ring on this lady's finger. In a few weeks we will get married. I adore her. I really like looking at pictures of her. Annie is a special human. I know I can't be objective but all of her friends say so too. Some other time I will try to put it into words. I can tell you now that I feel very lucky to have her in my life.
All my life I have not been completely present with people around me. I would hold back and try to control those around me out of a fear of abandonment. There is a lot that I missed in life because I was too worried about the future to fully enjoy the present. With Annie it is easy to stay present because we demand it of each other. We communicate with real-time-honesty. I never thought I would be able to do that with anyone.
There is plenty of goodness that passed between us. And if something doesn't feel good, either of us will say so. Instead of getting angry, distant, or defencive the response is simply "Ok, lets do it differently" I think this is possible because our love for each other is greater than our own egos. It also helps that I no longer need my partner to be anything other than her self. I think a lot of that has to do with my letting go. But more of it has to do with Annie being fantastic. Thank you Annie. I love you.
Posted by John Ellsworth at 10:51 AM